Is it ever going to get easier?

I find it easier to tell people of my diagnosis via the phone or through an email. I apologize for it appearing to be impersonal but the words "I have a brain tumor" aren't easy to say, especially when you see the look on their face and the silence that follows. Even typing an email or talking on the phone about it brings tears to my eyes, plus there is usually a lot of questions that follow so I answer them then direct them to the blog, where a lot of questions are answered. This just really sucks, and fear of the unknown. If anyone has a crystal ball, I'd love to borrow it, it would make this a lot easier. My first thought about treatment was, "I just want this thing out of me", which is still true right now, but with any treatment I will be giving up something. Depending on the results of the next tests, I think I will have a better understanding of the damage done. Now I am leaning more towards waiting to see what it does, but as I have said in a previous post, what ever damage that is done can not be undone, so it is a big gamble.

On a side note, something great happened today, no need to go into details but this lifted a huge weight off my shoulders. I can breathe a little easier now. Isabelle's school birthday party is this weekend, she invited girls from school to a party at gymnastics, it should be really cute. Easter is Sunday which is a huge event in my family, definitely one of my favorite holiday's, we play volleyball, corn hole, hunt eggs, and eat LOTS of yummy food. A bunch of families get together, it is unfortunate we don't make this a monthly thing with as much fun as we have. Jeff comes in tomorrow, so Isabelle and I are excited about that. She wanted us to have a race down the hallway and the winner got to give Jeff a kiss first. I think it is sweet.

Thanks for reading.